Good morning, friends
I just returned home from a beautiful trip to the Cayman Islands. I saw so much, touched so much, ate so much and soaked up so much sun.
Off topic, but I also discovered a new love for white cheddar rice cakes. Holy crapballs those things are addicting. Am I the only one who licks the white cheddar powder off of the cake first? So worth the crack-whore-esque white cheddar powdered face afterward. Know what else is worth it? A salt-induced coma from extra spicy Bloody Mary’s and ocean water consumption from getting way too excited and wide-mouthing the ocean. A habit I developed during my childhood summer days barfing up the remnants of my McDonald’s Happy Meal in the wave pool at Water Country park because I swallowed too many oncoming waves. Chicken McNuggs, fries with sweet ‘n sour sauce and a Sprite, in case you were curious of my go-to order.
I had the incredible opportunity to swim with the critters in the ocean. Although I’ve been blessed enough to travel & dive in many places, this one was special. I got to nuzzle a sting ray and - for my “seven years of good luck – I kissed him. Actually, it was a her, so ‘fk yea, Katy Perry, I kissed a girl and I liked it. My Dad and I had a great vacation and my body was so not ready to #riseandgrind at 4:30 am yesterday morning. I felt like (and probably looked like) I crawled out of a freshly-filled dumpster. I’m feeling a lot better after a good nights’ sleep last night, though.
I will be posting tons more picture on my Facebook page if you’re interested.
Anyways, vacation aside, today I want to talk about something that’s been on my mind recently. The more and more I indulge in the world of social media, magazines and television, the more I realize how important it is for me to stay in my own lane. I have my own goals, my own path and my own feelings that I desire to feel. I see so many people bashing each other for this and that, so many people advertising what’s right and wrong and so much negativity – even bullying – directed towards people just trying to live their own lives by their own terms. So why am I letting other human beings dictate the way I should go about reaching those goals? Why should I let someone else dictate what makes me happy?
Sometimes I struggle in the aspect that I try to live my life to gain acceptance in the eyes of others. Really, there is no right or wrong if you stay in your own lane.
This is just human nature; we all want to be accepted and loved – but it’s so important to remember that that acceptance and love should be towards you, genuinely, not you untruthful to please others. I’m a 24 year old woman living on this planet in the grace of God. I am not normal nor am I abnormal. I’m not ordinary or extraordinary. I’m Megan; I’m not meant to fit into any sort of category other than that of my own and if someone doesn’t accept and love me as myself, then maybe they aren’t worthy of space in my life, but undoubtedly someone else will be.
Create space for those who are true to you as you are true to yourself, it’s ok to repel the others. Let me repeat myself for my own good: it is OK to repel others. I’m making my own set of rules and following the path that The Lord carved out for me. I am seeking my own happiness and working to reach my own goals, can you say the same for yourself?
I’m not 100% happy with every aspect of my life, my body, my mind, but I am consciously working out those kinks. I will never be perfect, there will always be things I want to change, but I need to remember that I’ll never find that happy balance if I’m living to seek the approval of everyone, cause that just ain’t gonna happen.
People call me out on things daily and try to direct me in the “right direction”, but just like on a highway – you can’t drive in another lane if someone’s already in it, I have to stay in my own lane.
Peace and love!