I woke up a few mornings ago feeling really bloated, lethargic and just crappy. I have a harsh inner critic and when something goes awry, especially when it has to do with my midsection, I automatically go into full fledged bitch mode internally (rarely do I express it externally, though, in fear of judgment.) I rolled myself out of my bed at 4:37am and downed my preworkout and literally dragged myself to the gym. I wasn’t tired, I wasn’t sore, there was no real reason I needed to skip my workout other than the fact that my brain was telling me it was going to suck because I had monkey belly. Sure, I wake up some mornings with abs and other mornings I just don’t – and I realize I should be proud of my body either way, but sometimes I’m just not. Maybe I ate too much before bed the night before or maybe I was just being overly self-conscious. Whatever it was, I was just a poopy bitch.
When I got to the gym, I sat in my car in dead silence and placed my hands over my stomach, which was protruding in a blob-like shape over my spandex workout pants. But in that moment, I realized something. I realized that I am a human being. Humans aren’t perfect things. I am flawed and my imperfections and human tendencies are something I need to learn to embrace – which is something I struggle with daily. Instead of wallowing deeper into my struggle, I made a very conscious decision that I would not let my human tendencies affect how my workout – or my day in general – was going to pan out. That morning my monkey belly and I had one of the best workouts I’ve had in a long time. Not because I pushed myself harder than usual to try to counteract or get rid of my discomfort, but because I embraced my body and really appreciated what it’s been able to accomplish for me, especially in these past few months of rigorous workouts and contest prep.
Nit-picking at your flaws is only going to set you up for a negative mindset and negative mindsets don’t allow for much to be accomplished, especially when it comes to accepting and loving your body. Embrace all of your human-ness – the good and the bad – these qualities are what make you real. Seek your truth and decide to step forward with a positive foot, even if it seems impossible at the time. It’s ok to feel low, but it’s not ok to let that feeling linger and destroy you.
Peace and love!